This evening, one of my cousins was driving and went to pass someone. She lost control of her vehicle and hit a tree. After the paramedics finally rescued her-- it took nearly half and hour to remove her-- she was rushed to the hospital, put into the critical care unit and on life support. My cousin had suffered brain injury, broken bones, internal bleeding, and many other issues. At one point, during surgery, the doctors said that a miracle was occurring-- beyond all hope, my cousin was responding and fighting for her life. Nevertheless, she took a turn for the worse and is dying. Her last breath could be at any moment.
This is hard for my entire family to take. I am in shock. My cousin is one out of 24 of us first-cousins on my mother's wide, and she and I grew up together nearly like sisters. That is how close-knit my extended family was, and although in our grown-up years we cousins have become more distant, that bond of childhood years makes itself feel so very present.
I wish that I could say I knew where my cousin stood in regard to her relationship with Christ. I do not. Not even she knew, when last asked. I fear so greatly for her soul. If God would allow, I would suffer Hell for her that her soul might be saved. But I cannot. I am begging Him that He reached out to her one last time, and that she responded to Him.
The loss of life is sad. She was so young-- she would have been 25 soon.
The reason I am writing this-- beyond asking for prayers-- is for a much deeper reason. I love each and every one of you readers. This little blog has reached across the globe, from east to west, although many of you do not write in. That is more than alright. To those of you who read this: I pray that I may have been able to impart some bit of wisdom to you, that your life might have been touched in some way, or your marriage improved.
Yet, all of this means nothing if I cannot touch your heart for Christ. If I could just one thing of you, it would be this-- seek the Lord with all of your heart. Turn to Him. Amend your life, if need be, and live unequivocally, irrevocably for Him. I wish to spend eternity in Heaven with each and every one of you.
I will most likely be visiting home very soon for the funeral. Please keep my family in your prayers. I pray that I might be able to be a blessing to them in this time of grief. Thank you so much.